Got to get back...Got to get back... - LiveJournal.comA good Quote- October 22, 2007 "You can't stop some people. They come into your life destined to leave it. You can wrap your arms tight around them, but the best you can hope to do is just slow them down a little... 'cause there's no holding on tight enough."-from the movie All I WantIts true, you can think you can change the course of life, you can think what ifs all day and night, but some people really arent meant to stay forever, all you can do is cherish the time you had with them.http://justchooseme.livejournal.com/441842.html Where do you go from here.- October 17, 2007 Memorial service yesterday i seemed to go numb, or maybe it was my tear ducts were out of tears. I found Gregory outside the church, he refused to go in, made up excuses. He asked me to hand some photos over to erics mom. and if i thought it appropriate, he then hands me a notebook, Eric's old psychology notebookjournal from 2002. Stephanie and I sat during the mass reading all the old hand written thoughts and words of Eric, some made us laugh, some made us sad. That journal showed the...http://justchooseme.livejournal.com/439552.html Its becoming more real by the second- October 16, 2007 EricWebb Date of Service: 10162007 Date of Passing: 10132007 Details: Memorial MassforEric WebbTuesday, October 1610:00American Martyrs ChurchMay the souls of the faithful departed, rest in peace.i miss him so much. i wish he could hold me now. i want to touch his skin and know he's here with me and that this has all been just a bad dream.http://justchooseme.livejournal.com/439340.html How long does this take- October 14, 2007 i went to bed in my parents room. i didnt want to be in my bed. 4am i woke up and tried to go to sleep in my bed. i froze because i didnt want to use the blankets that i had a blanket war with him. i laid curled up in a ball staring at where his head was lying on the pillow. where he sat putting on his shoes, the box next to my bed still moved from him pushing it aside to fit his shoes there. my dvd player still spinning the dvd we watched. the blinds still slanted upwards from me pushing it..http://justchooseme.livejournal.com/439231.html Frozen- October 13, 2007 So I know nothing of your tasteand now speak up, louder.It's in your lips, I found.Come on, just press against meI finally have your attention,so listen closer, sweetheart.I've been trying to tell you, stay awake.And no, no, when we're safe hereCome back, come back, you stayed always.Stay with me hereStay with me and watch these cars go by,and tell me the first thing that comes to your mind.So watch as I go backI just came to say thatyou'll never see me again.This clock is ours now, till...http://justchooseme.livejournal.com/438797.html For Once I Wish It Was a Joke- October 13, 2007 One minute he is lying in my bed holding me, talking about plans for the future and his fears and how we feel.And 24 hours later i find out he's gone. not to the army like i feared, but really gone to a better place. i dont know how to feel. my bed smells like him. last thing i was talking to him about was how he couldnt sleep so he didnt want to keep me awake so he went home. we said goodbye, made plans for later on in the night to go on an adventure, we laughed, he smiled, and now he is...http://justchooseme.livejournal.com/438740.html |