FIONASpirited digressions(Untitled)- January 26, 2008 Stiff Upper LipI keep trying to rally. Chin up, etc. But every time I get a little energy going on, I spring a leak and deflate again before I really do anything worthy. I see that I have a problem with making ideas real. But that would fit, since I am an intuitive introvert who tries to avoid worldly things that will only suck off more of my energy or take up more precious bandwidth. My brain is already way too full of worldly programming that does not serve me. I constantly resist taking on...http://blogs.salon.com/0001705/2008/01/26.html#a656 (Untitled)- January 16, 2008 ObsessionsThis past holiday season I had very different feelings than in the previous one. In 2006, I watched all the old Xmas movies and cried my eyes out like a fool. In 2007, they did not affect me in that way at all. I thought they were dumb. What I think is that in '06, I was grieving over the loss of holiday joy that I used to feel. In '07, the joy was completely gone and I have become an abject pessimist. Sappy movies no longer have any power over me. I don't believe the lies any more....http://blogs.salon.com/0001705/2008/01/15.html#a655 |