Everything That SucksSo this is what it is like to be twenty-six?(Untitled)- December 31, 2003 Per the e-mail in my in-box, this blog dies in two days. Life this entire year has forced some heavy changes, but this time, change doesn't carry the stench of decay. I started this post and deleted it 3 times now. I have nothing left to say, it all sounds so lame ass. All my life my pain it is all I have known, and it is becoming more obvious that the misery was becoming a crutch... the point of my inspiration... Misery... is the shittiest excuse for a muse I have ever.http://blogs.salon.com/0001691/2003/12/31.html#a272 (Untitled)- December 13, 2003 Some say the end is near.Some say we&146;ll see armageddon soon.I certainly hope we will.I sure could use a vacation from thisBullshit three ring circus sideshow ofFreaksHere in this hopeless fucking hole we call laThe only way to fix it is to flush it all away.Any fucking time. any fucking day.Learn to swim, I&146;ll see you down in arizona bay.Fret for your figure andFret for your latte andFret for your lawsuit andFret for your hairpiece andFret for your prozac andFret for your pilot andFret..http://blogs.salon.com/0001691/2003/12/12.html#a271 (Untitled)- December 13, 2003 Mother I remember the night my mother died. I recall a strange feeling come over me at work, suddenly nearly crying. People asked me what was wrong, but of course I said nothing. Roughly 30 minutes later one of my supervisors walked over to me, she had this strange look on her face, and her red hair suddenly matched the color of her skin. I began to sob, could hardly walk, and I staggered into her office where I sat on the floor and wept. My father was on the phone. My mother just died, and he..http://blogs.salon.com/0001691/2003/12/12.html#a270 (Untitled)- December 11, 2003 Bland Depression is getting better. I know I don't write much, work has me less than inspired anymore. I just got done doing quarterly taxes for my second job, what a snooze man, it seems all I do is work and then rest after work. Fuck dude, I forget what inspired feels like. Question is, is numb better than depressed Depression is at least some sort of feeling... I could drink, but that is expensive, and I think I need to stop drinking myself into...http://blogs.salon.com/0001691/2003/12/10.html#a269 (Untitled)- December 11, 2003 Ministry of Sound Trance Nation 2003 (Track 7 - Lyrics) All the tears and the pain and the fears... they are ready Wanna die tonight One shattered light&133; Put your hand in my hand Put your hand in my hand Let me show you the way And you will understand&133; I'll show you the way Put your hand in my hand I'll show you All the tears and the pain and the fears are ready Wanna die tonight You are one shattered...http://blogs.salon.com/0001691/2003/12/10.html#a268 (Untitled)- December 10, 2003 Ego Tripping At the Gates of Hell - Flaming Lips (lyrics) Listen to the Song (click on Album Audio to get a player fo the entire album!) I was waiting on a momentBut the moment never cameAll the billion other momentsWere just slipping all awayI must have been trippingJust ego trippingI was wanting you to love meBut your love it never cameAll the other love around meWas just wasting all awayI must have been trippingJust ego trippingI was waiting on a momentBut the moment never came But the...http://blogs.salon.com/0001691/2003/12/09.html#a267 |