helplessness of the situation- January 10, 2008 working for public service makes me feel so useless. i am ashame to even admit it. i stand numb and awkward. skilled people have no place here. i have to change environment pretty soon. i am loosing my time and i'm sure i've got better things to do.http://thoughts-kk.blogspot.com/2008/01/helplessness-of-situation.html wear off- January 3, 2008 the moment the scene was taking place I had no consience of how critical the event was and what it meant. only a few hours later, away from home, travelling in a car, I realized the meaning of it. not long ago my father had his first low blood pressure occurences but hearing for them on the phone didn't seem to move me -not a bit. distance fades out things we want to ignore. but this time I was present and though a blood pressure drop is not what you would say a severe incintent that can damage.http://thoughts-kk.blogspot.com/2008/01/wear-off.html |